I know that the best thing would be to just leave. Almost die from sorrow, but then it would be over. But I can’t do that. People say that it will take time, but that everything will be fine again soon. Because that’s what they always say. But I don’t know. I can’t cease to love you just like that and forget all my feelings. Sometimes I feel fine and really think that I am really beginning to get over you. But then I sort of give up and get stuck even though I mean to move on and when I notice that, that it’s the same now as before, that the longing won’t subside, it feels like the only thing I’m managing to do is to sort of wear the feelings out. Letting time pass and hope and mourn and hope and mourn until they disappear out of sheer exhaustion. It would be so sad if it ended like that. But right now it seems like this is the only direction I can possibly go.
